two letters, one story.

disclaimer:

-this is an attempt to "play" with words. as the title states, this artik is from two different letters written by two different people. hindi din reply ang letter 1 sa letter 2. sinubukan ko lang himayin ang letters at i-match.

-WARNING: cheesy at madrama ito pero walang emotional baggage ang may akda habang ginagawa ito.

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TWO LETTERS, ONE STORY.

*_*: Hi! Busy ka na naman siguro kaya di ka nagpaparamdam. Nagpapamiss ulit, effective din kahit papaano.

0_0: Hi! How're you doin? It's been a while since I last saw you and today might be the last time I will. I've once thought that this day would come but I didn't know it would be this painful...

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*_*: Last Saturday, hindi ko inexpect na nandun kayo pareho, sobrang gulat ako nun... but I remembered everything that night at sobrang nagsisisi ako sa mga nasabi at nagawa ko...sana maniwala ka...

0_0: ...for the rest of my life, I will never forget that night...when all the realities of the time being did unfold and hit me. I dunno if you got “real drunk” but that doesn’t matter. What matters is that , you had the guts to tell me how much you are still in pain even after all. You have shown me that in spite of everything that has happened between the day you and XXX broke up and that fateful night, you have loved him with all your heart. Or at least have loved whatever it was between you and Him in the past. And that I, no matter how painful it is for me, can never replace that nor ease the pain away.

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*_*: Please, maniwala ka sa mga sasabihin ko... hindi totoo na hindi pa ako nakakagetover sa kanya, hindi totoo yung nasabi ko sa kanya... promise, i swear. Nabigla lang ako sa mga nasabi ko...

0_0: What I want us to do now, is to face the painful realities we have in front of us. That you, all this time, are not yet over him; or at least not yet over your relationship/memories with him. And that I, can never replace XXX in your life just because I’m not him and I can never be him. I did all I can to help you move on. I did all I can to make you feel special and to help you put a smile in your face after your failed relationship. I know how painful it was for you; but I don’t think you know how much more painful it was for me seeing you unhealed even after everything.

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*_*: ...hindi ka naging panakip butas...never ko ginawa yun sa'yo... kung naramdaman mo na naging panakip butas ka nga... I'm sorry, hindi ko iniisip na ganun na yung pakiramdam mo...

0_0: ...no matter how hard I try to be the best guy that I can be, it seems like I’m just not the right guy for you; and that whatever it is between us, is because of your fear of being alone, not of us having similar visions of a shared relationship together. I’m sad because I can only be there for you; but it seems like I can never be enough. I tried to be that missing part of you; but maybe I’m just not the one.

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*_*: ...mahal kita. Napatunayan ko na sa sarili ko na ikaw na nga hinahanap ko... last sem, di ba once or twice lang yata tayo nagkita at minsan lang tayo mag-usap, at first ok lang naman... pero habang tumatagal, iba na yung pakiramdam. gusto kita makausap, gusto kita makita kasi malungkot na...at kahit na nagsasaya kami ng friends ko at madami akong kausap na guy... iniisip ko sana ikaw na lang 'yun...

0_0: I love you. All these years that I’ve been by your side, I have loved you. Despite all the pain I have felt whenever you tell me how much you love XXX and that you don’t know if you could ever replace him in your life; despite all the hurt it caused me every time you tell me you have feelings for me, and then later cry over your past with Him; despite the countless nights of tears I had because I’ve always felt that I can never be enough for you; despite all these, I have loved you without judgment and regret but utmost sincerity, understanding, and respect.

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*_*:...if you want time and space, I understand... sana bumalik ka lang agad...

0_0: I’m letting you go. I’m letting us go. We need to accept that things would have to end this way, that we should allow us both to be free enough to seek whatever it is that will make us happy; whatever and whoever it is that will make YOU happy. After all, as I’ve been telling you: in this story, what matters most to me, is your happiness.

But just before I finally say goodbye, I wanna say a few more things that I may never tell you again. I thank you for everything. Thank you for inspiring me and making my life happier by just being in it. Thank you for all the good and the bad memories I will never forget. Thank you for teaching me life’s most important lessons. And though I may not have said this before or I may never say this ever again, I want you to know that the moments I have shared with you will always be one of the happiest moments of my life. And that will never change. No matter what happens. No matter who else comes…

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*_*: ...would you still be my boyfriend?

0_0: ...from this day on, you will always be my first girlfriend that I never had.

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THE END.